My Fashion Blog

I’ve never claimed to be quite fashionable. I’m quite happy in jeans, a fitted tee and my favorite thong sandals, but recently things have started to change. So below is the link to The Fledgling Fashionista, my new fashion blog. Feel free to peruse it, leave comments or give me things to write about.

http://fledglingfashionista.wordpress.com/

I’m in repair…I’m not together, but I’m getting there-John Mayer

I’ve been neglecting this blog again. I’m quite sure I can come up with at least one really good reason why I’ve been away and that’s teaching at the college, but I know I can make time if I really want to.

I guess it boils down to me not having a lot to write about. I don’t know. I have these great moments of relief, where I feel things have finally started settling down and at last the life I want is catching up with the efforts I’ve put in over the years, but I’ll be completely honest and say I haven’t been sleeping much, I’m still worried about a lot and maybe it’s because I’m so used to being stressed and on edge that I don’t really know how to come down, but I think it’s more than that as well. I don’t want to get settled again and then feel like I’ve been bowled over without warning. I guess that’s one of the pitfalls of the last year. I’ve learned to second guess myself more than a little bit and I think it’s going to take a lot to repair that.

For as much as muster I am hoping that my self declaration that 2008 is my year comes true. I have to be optimistic. I have to think of the things I’ve accomplished in the last two months and realize that I’ve made more leaps and bounds towards the end product life I want than I ever have in my adult life. So I need to recognize the good and stop worrying that things aren’t happening as fast as I would like them to. It took all these years for things to build to this point, so what makes me think the pay off will come any faster than the development. So I’m going to let John keep on singing and convince myself that everything will be alright.

On the Eve of Great Change…

I was reading a post on a message board this morning and it got me thinking about 2008. I’m going to be 30 in December and it is kind of blowing my mind. I have mixed feelings about it. In the last month I’ve moved out of my home state, I earned my MFA and I’m now teaching at a college. Things are slowly (and I mean slowly) starting to take the shape I’ve been hoping for all these years, but I’m still not completely settled. There are things I thought I would have accomplished by now and places I wished I would see by this point and it hasn’t happened. I know life never goes exactly as planned nor does it end at 30, but that post got me thinking.

Every year that has come and gone in my adult life has never really seemed like “MY” year, but for some reason I can’t stop myself from thinking this is it. My cutie offered me a clean slate when I got here and I am forever grateful for that and I really do believe this is it.

All that being said what is this post about?  I guess it’s kind of a list of things I want to do this year, things I want to learn, places I want to go and things I need help with. So here we go:

I want to go out of the country for my birthday in December

I want to spend a holiday in NYC

I want to relearn Spanish

I want to go to at least two writing retreats

I want to publish at least five poems

I want to meet a core group of really good friends

I want to change my personal style

I want to be as debt free as possible by December 31st (save student loans of course!)

I want to have three months of living expenses in the bank

I want to start selling my art again

I want to start taking photos again (I need a new camera)

I want to find new music

I want to read all the books I own I neglected while in school

I want to go to the gym on a regular basis

I want to get my passport

I want to freelance more

I want to get another tattoo (my last I think)

I want to (if possible) trade in my car

I want to seriously consider cutting off my hair

I want to live life to the fullest

I don’t want to look at anyone else’s life and envy it

I want to live for me and have as much fun as possible

Allow me to reintroduce myself…

They say the third time’s the charm right? We’ll see about that. After a conversation the other night about my lack of posting online since my days at Fireseek and UrbanPoetic, I decided maybe I just need to ease back into it. I highly doubt I’ll ever get back to my record numbers from a few years ago, but I will at least try. So here we are again ! :)